For the record

I did not intentionally become pregnant with M.  I took the birth control pills as prescribed.  I don't know how many times I can say this.

Yes, I did say I wanted 3 kids

BUT

In no universe would it ever have been my choice, plan or desire to have a 2-year-old AND a baby.  Never.

AND

I have said at least a couple times how when N started kindergarten and I was back in a school building again, I kinda got the teaching bug. I got the rush that I used to feel when teaching, when planning lessons, when working with kids.

And that feeling was surprising to me.  I didn't expect to feel that way, but it was nice.

It was also nice to have a breather from having both kids underfoot all summer long.  I felt renewed with only having 1 kiddo during most of the day.  I began to think about what life would be like when both kids were in school, and I could either go back to work or volunteer in the kids' classrooms.

So had I not been 8 months pregnant, it is entirely possible I would have said "Forget the idea of 3 kids.  I want Carrie back."

BUT

I was 8 months pregnant.

And I did not get pregnant by myself.