I feel like I'm having a personal renaissance of sorts.
For awhile now, I've been tinkering with the idea of starting to paint pictures. Not take classes (although that is definitely a possibility in the future), but just seeing what I can do on my own. I've done a few of those "wine & paint" activities, and it seems to me that many of the paintings I could really probably do on my own. I'm not saying they don't require skill, but the skill level they require is pretty basic.
I love fall/Halloween, and decorate accordingly, but I don't have anything to hang over my mantel so I thought I would find a picture online and attempt to recreate it on my own, in my dining room. Without wine, even.
And this is what I made:
When D came home and I showed him, he said, "What did you do with M while you and your mom did that?" (My mom and I are attending a "wine & paint" event tomorrow, which he had seen on the Ical.)
I said, "We didn't. I painted that here." He said something like, "In our house?," which I interpreted as, "Damn, girl--you are so freaking talented and awesome I cannot believe my luck in marrying you."
I am certified to teach grades 5-9. When I went to school for my MAT at age 24, I didn't want to teach high schoolers for two reasons: 1. I knew they might be significantly bigger than me and 2. I thought they might be smarter than me. I emotionally always felt like a middle schooler, so I thought it would be a good fit. And it was.
In my part-time teaching gig now, I am teaching middle- and high-schoolers, and I enjoy both tremendously. But I must admit that being able to read deeper literature and talk about deeper topics with my high schoolers is awesome.
Now that I've got some life behind me, I know that even if they are really, really bright, they haven't lived 40 years, and that counts for a lot. I'm older, wiser, and on medication so my anxiety about teaching high schoolers is far, far diminished.
Which makes me think that when I take classes in 2014 to re-renew my certificate, I will put them towards getting high school certified.
Branching out in these ways feel really freeing, like this new act of my life is full of all kinds of possibility.